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angelic_archer) wrote2015-11-17 09:42 pm
angelic_archer) wrote2015-11-17 09:42 pm
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AU: One Decision Can Change Everything (for wayfaring_stranger)
Alec hadn't expected to survive. When he'd stepped in front of the demon to save Jace, he'd known that he wouldn't escape those razor sharp claws. But it didn't matter. He'd always protected Izzy and Jace. He'd always wanted to be the one who fought beside Jace, to have someone believe he was capable and strong. Now he'd proven it by saving the life of someone he loved.
The thought was a distant comfort as pain exploded along his chest, poison burning through his veins even as Jace knelt beside him trying to heal the wounds. He could barely breath but somehow he managed to ask if now he was good enough to be Jace's parabatai.
After that everything was a blur of pain, blood, and fever. He remembered being in the back of the van, trying to focus on golden eyes. Izzy's hand brushed at his hair and he tried to keep from scaring her but then he couldn't breathe, choking until he thought that would be what killed him. He'd tried to reach for Jace's hand but he never knew if he managed to find it. Jace carrying him inside.
Then pain blurred everything into what he thought was hallucinations. A blue skinned woman with gentle hands. When he woke, finally aware of his surroundings, Jace was still missing and Catarina had pronounced that the danger had passed. She even said he could stay in his own room instead of the Infirmary. There had also been an unsubtle hint that he needed to shower.
With Izzy's help, Alec managed to get to his room. He checked his phone, trying not to worry when there was no message from Jace, then hobbled to the bathroom. Catarina was right. He needed to bathe. Maybe when he had gotten cleaned up, there'd be some news from Jace or Clary.
The thought was a distant comfort as pain exploded along his chest, poison burning through his veins even as Jace knelt beside him trying to heal the wounds. He could barely breath but somehow he managed to ask if now he was good enough to be Jace's parabatai.
After that everything was a blur of pain, blood, and fever. He remembered being in the back of the van, trying to focus on golden eyes. Izzy's hand brushed at his hair and he tried to keep from scaring her but then he couldn't breathe, choking until he thought that would be what killed him. He'd tried to reach for Jace's hand but he never knew if he managed to find it. Jace carrying him inside.
Then pain blurred everything into what he thought was hallucinations. A blue skinned woman with gentle hands. When he woke, finally aware of his surroundings, Jace was still missing and Catarina had pronounced that the danger had passed. She even said he could stay in his own room instead of the Infirmary. There had also been an unsubtle hint that he needed to shower.
With Izzy's help, Alec managed to get to his room. He checked his phone, trying not to worry when there was no message from Jace, then hobbled to the bathroom. Catarina was right. He needed to bathe. Maybe when he had gotten cleaned up, there'd be some news from Jace or Clary.
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The moment he'd spoken he was chasing after Alec's lips again, returning the bite and wrapping his arm around Alec's back, holding him close. He was dizzy with relief and the heat under his skin. Holding Alec steady as much as he was holding himself steady.
"I'm certain now that I made the right decision. I wanted to know. I wanted the chance to know. And then you had died and that chance was gone. I had wasted my time with you testing my own emotions, thinking Clary had changed everything."
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He whimpered when Jace kissed him again, knees feeling weak. If Jace wasn't holding him, he'd probably be on the floor. He was probably resting too much of his wait on his friend but he couldn't pull away. And Jace wouldn't let them fall or let Alec hurt himself even by accident. "Feels like this should be a hallucination."
But a fantasy wouldn't be so confusing. Everything would be simple. Jace would want him in the ways Alec had hoped for instead of Alec having to figure out what exactly Jace had been thinking of.
"Wanted to know what?" It didn't make sense. Jace might do reckless things but he thought things through. It might not be in the same way Alec did but Jace didn't blindly jump into things. Or he hadn't until Clary showed up. "Why did you think she changed everything?" And if she had, why was Jace with him instead of her?