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[It takes a few minutes and the sharp burn of more alcohol to allow Alec to process what Jace had said. He was the first guy that Jace had kissed. It probably should make him angry but it doesn't. It would have hurt worse if Jace had been fooling around with other guys while not noticing Alec.
It's still weird and a snarl of conflicting emotions but he doesn't feel any of the resentment that would have ate at him if Jace had been dating both guys and girls. At least when he'd seen Jace with girls, he could accept that he wasn't Jace's type.]
"I'm glad I was the first. I don't think I could have dealt with seeing you with another guy."
[He wondered if seeing him with Magnus bothered Jace but his parabatai is in love with Clary.]
"I thought maybe all the girls were your way of hiding."
[Ducking his head, he tried to sort through the conflicting feelings. Everything felt the same and different now. Jace had never been this open with his emotions and after weeks of Jace pushing him away, Alec keeps trying to guess the hidden meaning in everything.
Except that smirk. Jace is never going to let that go.]
"You know what I did. And a few days later he quit talking to me."
[It takes a few minutes and the sharp burn of more alcohol to allow Alec to process what Jace had said. He was the first guy that Jace had kissed. It probably should make him angry but it doesn't. It would have hurt worse if Jace had been fooling around with other guys while not noticing Alec.
It's still weird and a snarl of conflicting emotions but he doesn't feel any of the resentment that would have ate at him if Jace had been dating both guys and girls. At least when he'd seen Jace with girls, he could accept that he wasn't Jace's type.]
"I'm glad I was the first. I don't think I could have dealt with seeing you with another guy."
[He wondered if seeing him with Magnus bothered Jace but his parabatai is in love with Clary.]
"I thought maybe all the girls were your way of hiding."
[Ducking his head, he tried to sort through the conflicting feelings. Everything felt the same and different now. Jace had never been this open with his emotions and after weeks of Jace pushing him away, Alec keeps trying to guess the hidden meaning in everything.
Except that smirk. Jace is never going to let that go.]
"You know what I did. And a few days later he quit talking to me."
